Winter Survival (Poem)

I.

White water dances with rock life.
Spider-sized stones sit
at the bottom of the stream,
little pebbles setting the foundation
for the movement of the white water.

Signs are set on the trees of the trail,
the trail laying separate from the rapids.
Signs on the trees of the trail state:
entering the water is as deadly as a
wintertime flower garden.

Signs are set on the trees of the trail, but
my curious foot wants to lay a print
on the fragile ice.

So I dance with white water.
The movement of the whiteness –
I had never seen so much turbulence –
continues me down, down stream.

There is strength about this water,
about this trail; a natural fortitude
that extends through to me.

I flail and try not to choke
on the stream.

I am frozen.

II.

White water dances with rock life,
and stunningly enough, the white water
slows down her movement
when she sees me. She is
slowing down.
Slowing
down.

I dance with and cling onto larger geology,
larger than a pebble, larger than me,
pulling my body toward the
snow-bedded, white ground,
removing myself from the white water.

There is strength about this water,/
about this trail, that brought my body
to an emergency department.
Hypothermia, they said.

But there is strength about this water,
about this trail, that connected my soul,
my pebble-sized being, to a larger plan,
a larger force.

My fellow travelers fit their
clothing upon my back
once I appeared,
and

I am alive.
I am winter survival.

Originally published in BLUELINE COLLEGE EDITION: A LITERARY MAGAZINE DEDICATED TO THE SPIRIT OF THE ADIRONDACKS (SUNY Potsdam) in 2014.

Paul Halley Announces “TURN: A One-Man Audio Drama,” A Raw Exploration of Misguided Ambition and the Search for Self

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE -- NEW YORK, April 1, 2026 — Writer, performer, producer, and Rockland County native Paul Halley announces the forthcoming release of TURN: A One-Man Audio Drama, an unapologetic work of autobiographical fiction that captures the frantic intersection of manic ambition and the search for self. Written for a young adult audience, TURN will be released as a spoken word album in May 2026 for mental health awareness month. Set against the backdrop of 2017, TURN chronicles a high-stakes gamble for identity that moves from Paul’s childhood bedroom in the Hudson Valley of New York to the manicured lawns of a California luxury rehab.

The Listener Experience: A Front-Row Seat to the Lived Experience of Mania

Unlike a traditional audiobook, TURN utilizes the "one-man audio drama" format to create a claustrophobic, immersive psychological landscape. Listeners aren't just hearing a story; they are trapped inside Paul’s psyche during a period of escalating manic despair.

The experience is designed to be visceral and, at times, unsettling. As Paul spins a scheme to sign up for a stay at a luxury California rehab—convinced that fame lies just on the other side of the intake form—the audience becomes a silent witness to a mental health crisis of a young adult, in real-time. There is a haunting tension in the "play" button: the listener watches someone they have come to know literally “turn” into someone else. The listener is powerless to intervene as he runs off into a manic void, leaving his unsuspecting mother behind.

It is a rare, honest look at the momentum of a breakdown and the terrifying distance between the person we want to be and the person we are becoming.

The Story: A Young Man in a Fractured State, Running Away to the Golden State

At 23, Paul is trapped in a cycle of manic despair. Driven by a desperate need for recognition, he exaggerates his way into a prestigious California recovery center—not to heal, but to find a shortcut to stardom. What begins as a calculated scheme quickly unravels. Forced to confront the reality of his own mind, Paul flees the facility, disappearing from his family’s reach and descending into a journey that leads him exactly where he belongs.

“In this story, I wanted to show what it feels like when the masks we wear finally crack. It’s about the distance between who we want the world to see and who we actually are when all of the lights go out," Halley said. "Most of all, in releasing this project to the world, my ultimate wish is to inspire other people to find their voice through deep reflection and make sense of their lived experiences through a creative outlet that is meaningful for them.

Told in 10 spoken chapters,TURN is a messy, honest, and visceral coming-of-age story with young-adult themes surrounding mental health and the LGBTQ+ identity. It examines the terrifying moment when a person begins to turn into someone unrecognizable—and the grueling, but rewarding, process of turning around to face themselves in the mirror. At first a story of breaking down, TURN becomes a story of building yourself up – and refusing to break apart.

A Singular Audio Production

The production features a high-caliber creative team:

  • Writer & Narrator: Paul Halley
  • Executive Producer: Paul Halley
  • Recording Engineer: Tim Phillips at Mercy Sound Studios
  • Mastering Engineer: Tim Boyce at The Sound Design
  • Artist: Joe Weil & Toro Custom Projects
  • The project’s roots trace back to a successful workshop at the Elmwood Playhouse in Nyack, NY, directed by Derek Tarson, where excerpts were first brought to life for a live audience in August 2024. Learn more about TURN: The Workshop.

ALBUM DETAILS:

  • Title: TURN: A One-Man Audio Drama
  • Summary: "It's 2017. In an episode of manic despair, Paul, an unstable 23-year-old from New York, exaggerates his way into a luxury California rehab center as a scheme to find fame and recognition in The Golden State. Upon his arrival, he is forced to reckon with the state of his own mental health until he is compelled to run off the property, leaving his unsuspecting mother unaware of his whereabouts — and leaving himself to end up where he really belongs. In this messy, imperfect, and ultimately honest coming-of-age story, TURN shows its audience what it feels like to watch someone turn into somebody else — and what it takes for them to turn around and look at themselves in the mirror."
  • Author/Narrator: Paul Halley
  • Length: Approximately 90 minutes
  • Publisher: Spoken Foundry Studios
  • Release Date: TURN: A One-Man Audio Drama will be available on major streaming platforms on May 10, 2026.
  • Platforms: Bandcamp, Spotify, Apple Music, YouTube Music, iTunes
  • Category: Young Adult / Autobiographical Fiction / Coming of Age / LGBTQ+ / Mental Health
  • Format: Spoken Word Album
  • Language: English
  • Copyright: Text 2018–2026; Production 2026

About Paul Halley

Paul Halley is a New York-based writer and performer from Rockland County. TURN represents nearly a decade of creative development, blending personal history with dramatic fiction & performance to explore themes of mental health, identity, and the natural, human pursuit of recognition and validation. Paul graduated from SUNY Potsdam in 2017 with a bachelor’s degree in English and currently studies in the MFA program in Creative Writing at Manhattanville University.

Media Contact

Paul Halley
Founder, Spoken Foundry Studios LLC
Email | Website

"I was told I had so much potential."

by Paul Halley | "TURN: A One-Man Audio Drama" (Audio Teaser)

Exciting News: Three Poems Selected for New Anthology

February 3, 2026

I’m happy to share that three of my poems will be featured in a new anthology, “Poems for a Wish,” published by Hudson Valley Arts Collective.

“Bound by geography rather than subject, this anthology gathers poets from across the Hudson Valley whose work reflects the richness of a shared creative community. Together, these poems form a chorus shaped by shared ground and distinct inner worlds. Published by the Hudson Valley Arts Collective, the collection celebrates poetry as a communal practice rooted in community, collaboration and connection. A portion of proceeds will be donated to Make-A-Wish® Hudson Valley.”

Poems for a Wish book cover

Published by the Hudson Valley Arts Collective, the collection celebrates poetry as a communal practice rooted in community, collaboration and connection.

Three of my poems that are close to my heart will be featured in the anthology: “A Little Boy Walked To The Sky,” “How To Feel a Feeling,” and “For You, With You, Wherever You Are”

You can order a copy of the anthology at Hudson Valley Arts Collective.

Next Chapter: Joining the Manhattanville MFA Community

August 30, 2025

I was accepted to a few different Master of Fine Arts programs over the past couple of months. I visited one of the programs earlier this summer, as sort of a trial visit, but it was not a good fit for me. It felt like the goals and outcomes of that program did not fully align with my professional and academic goals, so I chose not to commit. The last program that accepted me (best is always for last) was the Manhattanville MFA program at Manhattanville University in Purchase, NY. It is a multi-genre program, so I can explore a variety of forms, styles, and genres throughout my time in the curriculum. Plus, the courses are in-person and there seems to be a strong literary community at this school.

Mville MFA Fall 2025 Cohort students

Mville MFA Fall 2025 Cohort

What makes this opportunity even more special to me is my acceptance to the MFA Teaching Fellowship which will provide me with specialized experience tutoring undergraduate students on-campus at the Academic Writing Center, as well as opportunities to teach sections of College Writing 101 in the undergraduate academic writing program during years 2 & 3. I was also offered a significant funding scholarship which I am very grateful for.

Barat House sign at Manhattanville University

Barat House at Mville is a home for Creative Writing

Thank you to Iain Haley Pollock, the MFA Program Director @ Mville, for accepting me into this program. It feels like a true literary community at this school, one where I can connect with other writers and artists in the local area especially. I am excited to dive into my three courses this upcoming semester: Foundations of Graduate Creative Writing, Teaching and Tutoring Writing, and The Art of Adaptation.

Time to hunker down for a while. To art, to writing, to life! 👏 🙏

What I Did In Thirty Years

  1. Feel everything.
  2. Observe everything.
  3. Talk.
  4. Walk.
  5. Learn.
  6. Say nothing at all when what I want to say isn’t very nice.
  7. Say what I mean, and mean what I say.
  8. Put on a show, and be the star of it too.
  9. Say something different when what I want to say isn’t very nice.
  10. Go as slow as I need to; I’ll make it to the finish line no matter what.
  11. Write a love poem.
  12. Fall in love even though they’ll tell me I’m just a kid.
  13. Stick up for myself in the face of a bully, even if I think they’re right about me.
  14. Apologize with my whole heart.
  15. Quit while I’m on top.
  16. Quit while I’m at the bottom.
  17. Forgive myself for quitting.
  18. Unlearn and start over.
  19. Find a group of friends.
  20. Fall in love again; unexpectedly, out of nowhere.
  21. Write an honest love poem.
  22. Ask for help, take the help.
  23. Set a goal.
  24. Climb a mountain.
  25. Accomplish a goal without telling anyone.
  26. Lose what I tried so hard to obtain.
  27. Let it go and move onward, upward.
  28. Love myself for who I really am, and quit being my own bully.
  29. Release my secret skeletons, and begin to see real change.
  30. Love another person better than I could before.